And I am tired, yesterday I was feeling exhausted but it is probably more from herxing than literal tiredness. My body is feeling toxic overload at the moment, which means the killers are working but the body is having a hard time removing the toxic buildup of the waste. So I slowed down my Protandim again and made sure I drank all of my three quarts of water yesterday. By the time we got home last night about 7:30, I was feeling so bad, I barely made it through supper and then I went off to find some solitude in my room. I have not been this way in a while; just feeling like I can’t cope with anything that requires my using my mind. Conversation was out, I tried to read that didn’t go very far…finally Hubby came in and put on a Warbirds documentary, which is mostly just war footage with a bit of narration. Nothing taxing to the mind but it helped. The documentary is interesting and there is a good bit of footage I have never seen before. I went to sleep feeling a lot better than I did after supper. This Lyme stuff definitely messes with the brain and it is not until you start to get better that you realize how off you were. Or as my oldest likes to say, “I didn’t realize until I started to get better how much…….”(Fill in the blank with a long list of Lyme complications.)
This kind of work is not as physically as taxing as what comes next. But it is emotional and stressful. I suspect, someone sooner or later is going to be displeased that something or other was gotten rid of and I will have to deal with the emotional aspect of knowing that I displeased that person. That feeling along with my own of having to grit my teeth at times and not want to crawl into a puddle and cry among the memories.
I personally am looking forward to the shift up in physical work. But for today, I am going to church, take a day off and rest; which is what the Sabbath or our Christian Lord’s Day was designed for. Worship and resting.